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PART 4
In Part one and two of this ongoing series, I have defined PTSD. As we can see, anyone can become a survivor of these various symptom pictures due to the trauma they experienced. There are many ways to approach the healing course of PTSD symptoms. The psychological community works via therapy. Of late, there are some new 'tools' that have been developed in this community, among them, Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR), Traumatic Incident Reduction (TIR), and Visual Kinesthetic Dissociation (VKD). All of these methods have had some success with some individuals. If you are interested in any of these forms, contact your therapist for details.
Trauma in any form, is not going to be cured by just one tool. Human beings are far too diverse and unique as individual beings, to have that occur. We need many tools, from many areas, in order to help PTSD survivors heal. Sometimes psychotherapy is utilized, prayer, hands-on-healing, sweat lodges, Rolfing, Polarity Therapy, Gestalt therapy, vision quests, herbs, vitamins and minerals, traditional drugs, homeopathic treatment, Bach Flower treatment and many other 'tools are utilized'.
One 'tool' that has rarely written about, but deserves a lot of attention and exploration as a possible road to becoming healed from PTSD symptoms, is call shamanic intervention. I don't claim to be an authority of world-wide shamanism. I can only approach this subject through my own experience and observation. I will share how it helped me with my PTSD symptoms, later in this article.
A STORY
My great-great grandmother was on the 'Trail of Tears' when our Eastern Cherokee nation was forcibly removed from our land in the Carolina's. The trail went up through Tennessee, almost to the Kentucky border. My great-great grandmother escaped at that point and fled into the mountains of Kentucky. Later, she met my great-great grandfather, Elias Gent. They married. My only knowledge of this woman is through my father's sister, Aunt Elena, who is now dead. Before she died, I drove to West Virginia, where she lived, to find out all I could about our Native American heritage.
Aunt Elena said that she remembered her, and that she was small and dark skinned with black, snapping eyes that could make you shake in your boots. My great-great grandmother said little. She never told our family what her real, Cherokee name was because she feared the Army, once they had her real name, would drag her off to the reservation now established in Oklahoma. Aunt Elena knew only two things about her: she was a member of the Wolf Clan and she came from a medicine family. She grew a lot of herbs and knew about them medicinally. Aunt Elena noted that the resulting children and offspring from that side of the family all seem to have a gift, more or less, shared between them. That gift was a psychic or clairvoyant ability as best as my Aunt Elena could describe--but it was something 'more' and she just couldn't adequately put it into words for me. My grandfather (her father) was so overwhelmed with this 'gift' that he considered it a 'curse' and promptly turned to becoming a Methodist minister to counteract, what he interpreted, was the Devil trying to make him go insane.
Of all the children, my father, James Gent, got the bulk of the 'gift-curse' , Aunt Elena noted. He was called the 'Black Sheep' of the family and his father, the Methodist minister, used to beat him unmercifully with a thick, leather strap, because the Devil had a hold on him, too. My father had clairvoyant gifts, there was no doubt, Aunt Elena said--just as she said my great-great grandmother.
My father would see 'colors' around people, hear voices, and see 'things' and he would 'journey' to places on and off this world of ours. Of course, Aunt Elena went on, my father (her brother) didn't have the good sense God gave a cow, to keep his mouth shut about these things. So, the tension and bad blood between father and son was constant during my father's growing-up years.
I knew none of this growing up. I never knew anything of my great-great grandmother. My father, however, put me and my brother Gary (who was 3 years younger than me) into 'training' when I was nine years old. He built to small 'closets' with 2x4's and Mom draped material over them for privacy's sake. My father then began instructing us on how to train our minds, our focus, to perform certain techniques. I realize now what he was doing--he was training us to do what he could do. Of the four children, he chose the two of us to carry on the gift given through the family from our great-great grandmother in our generation--which is a typical Native American custom.
I knew my father was a powerful man. Before this time of training, that was to last for 9 years, we kids used to play 'hide and seek' with him. Only, his version of hide and seek was nothing that you would have ever encountered. The three of us would sit in the living room and slowly count to 100, and then, our father would challenge us to find him. It's pretty easy to spot a 250 pound man. He can't fit into too many places very easily. We lived in a two-story, 3-bedroom house, and we knew where the hidey-holes were located--and we never found him. We'd run out to the cow barn and look for him there, too. We'd look in the car--we looked everywhere! The many, many times we'd played this game while we grew up, we never found him.
Except, one day, I had a 'feeling' and I went out toward the gravel road where the gate to our property was located. I saw our half-coyote dog, Foxy, standing near the gate, wagging his tail and expectedly looking upward. But I saw nothing. Whatever Foxy saw, was invisible. As I walked nearer, I received a very powerful feeling my father was there--and yet, I couldn't see him! I could feel his presence as surely as I could feel Foxy's madly waving his tail against my skinny little leg. Frustrated and stumped, I went back to the living room and joined my siblings to wait for my father to show up.
And show up he did, about ten minutes later. He came into the room grinning from ear to ear and appraising at me expectedly. This game was always fun, with lots of laughter, teasing and high jinx. It was one of the few times my PTSD father seem to be able to come out of his traumatized shell and be a different person--naturally, all of us loved it when he'd invite us to play hide-and-seek with him! This time, he stood there assessing me very closely. He teased me about finding him--finally. He'd been waiting for this to happen, he told me. I gave him a strange look and said I didn't see him.
"But you felt me, didn't you?" he asked.
I shrugged my painfully thin shoulders and muttered, "Well, Foxy saw something....," I hedged.
"But you came out because I was calling you. Did you hear me call you?"
I solemnly shook my head. "I didn't hear you, Daddy."
His smile broadened and I languished in it--he smiled so rarely. I felt like I'd done something terrifically right--but darned if I knew what it was! I just sat there, completely confused by it all. Looking back on that time, I realized that my 'gift' had matured to the point where I did sense/feel him out and I was able to locate him with it. That was why he put me into training--because I was ready for it. I had grown into my gift. Gary got to 'tag along' because he showed an interest in the training, too--and he was only six years old at the time! My father trained both of us. He never called what we did by any particular name. We never asked. We trusted him and the training was nightly that first year, after school work was done.
Over the ensuing years, I was able to do a great deal with my focused mind and energy. One time, I got angry at a boy in high school and visualized him tripping over the waste basket beside the teacher's desk and falling. It happened exactly as I pictured it in my mind ten minutes later. Shocked and horrified, that incident scared me. From that one lesson, I realized that what I was trained to do could harm people. I began to shut down after that because I was afraid any bad or negative thoughts of mine could harm people around me and I just couldn't bear to have that happen. By age eighteen, my training completed, I left home and I never used what I'd been taught after that.
Time has a funny way of returning to a cycle that's not complete, back to one's doorstep for completion. In the early 1980's, I met a woman who introduced me to a Western Cherokee medicine man, Richard Graves, Ed.D. He took one look at me and told me to go home, and for one year, meditate daily and keep a journal--and to send him the journal from time to time. I did exactly as he asked. In that year, my 'gift' emerged--fully. For two years, Dick guided me in his own imperturbable way--never saying WHAT I was doing or experiencing. Typically, Native Americans don't give things such as this a name. It is merely a 'medicine' or skill or talent that the individual has or is developing.
In my book, which I wrote, SOUL RECOVERY AND EXTRACTION (under my E. Cherokee name of Ai Gvhdi Waya/Walks With Wolves) I go into far more detail about the incidents that occurred in this year of meditation. Suffice to say, my great-great grandmother's 'gift' was fully evolved in me--and in my brother, Gary Gent. It wasn't until the late 1980's that I met a Basque shamanness named Tyo Llorente, who put a name on what I was doing: I was a shaman. I'm sure the Cosmos put her in my path to complete the circle I was traveling upon.
Tyo was also responsible for retrieving several 'parts' of me that had 'split off' from PTSD related events, including my rape at age twenty-four. With these pieces back and integrated, I no longer had the bulk of my PTSD symptoms. It was the most freeing moment of my life. It would be akin to being in deep water, on your last breath of air and you're not sure you will reach the surface in time to ever breathe again. And by regaining my lost pieces back via her journeying in my behalf, as a shaman, I regained lost parts of my broken, shattered spirit and I began to heal, after that time, at an incredible rate of speed.
Prior to all of this, back in the mid-1970's, I had met an older woman who worked with the mysterious 'black box' and she had given me Calcarea Carbonica 50M, via this method. Looking back on that experience, since it was my constitutional remedy, it helped my vital force begin it's journey back toward balance and later, these other opportunities for healing, arrived right on time, to push it more toward balance. The only thing I had to do was take advantage of them and not be afraid to embrace them or the opportunity. Fear is always the greatest when there is change at the soul level--and it was certainly that way for me.
I had homeopathic treatment, and then I had shamanic intervention treatment to help more of my PTSD symptoms. I wisely got three years of therapy from a wonderful woman in Cleveland, Ohio, who helped me create more breakthroughs within myself. These three 'tools' were the major healers that dissolved the bulk of my PTSD symptoms and allowed me to heal almost completely from it. The rest will come with Time, but it's a small part in comparison to what it had been before the use of these 'tools'.
WHAT IS SHAMANISM?
It's a gift, skill or talent that's as old as Humankind on Mother Earth. I'm going to use the word shaman to denote either male or female. Sometimes shaman denotes male and shamanness denotes a female. For simplicity's sake here, I'll use shaman to mean either gender. Being a shaman does not mean you have to be of Native American blood . It has nothing to do with your skin color or nationality. I have learned over the years, that all countries have shamans and they can be male or female.
In the 'olden' days, shamans were a working part of their community--by day, they were out in the fields working, they were parents, they did all the things everyone else did to help keep their community alive and well. By night, they donned their shaman's cap, and journeyed in behalf of the people of their village. In this way, as we say, shamans have one foot solidly rooted in Mother Earth and our third dimensional reality, and the other foot solidly rooted in all the other less visible dimensions that intersect and flow in and around us all the time. Shamans are, symbolically speaking, a fulcrum point between the seen and unseen worlds. They are considered 'messengers' who bring back messages for the individual they are journeying for. They may bring a message from a loved one who is deceased.
They journey in an altered state of consciousness, at WILL, in a fully controlled manner. It's important to note a shaman can shut off this psychic valve in them when they want to close it down. To not be able to do so, means this is out of control and frequently diagnosed as a psychotic break, schizophrenia or some other mental aberration term. We journey into many different, surrounding dimensional realities to retrieve a 'piece' of you that has 'split off' due to trauma. Some shamans, especially those from the third world cultures, use hallucinogenic drugs as a device to make the 'leap' from third dimension reality into the other dimensions. When Timothy Leary and his group started experimenting with LSD decades ago, they had found a substance that 'trip-levered' open that particular psychic valve/door in our brain, that allows entrance into these other dimensional realities.
For other shamans, such as myself, the constant, unbroken beat of a drum, will place me and my facilitators into this altered state so that I may journey. This is not astral traveling or astral projection--which is an entirely different metaphysical process. Shamans are trained for decades, usually in the format of the 'Wounded Healer Archetype' and the "Shaman Archetype.' To be a shaman, one must have certain earmark events occur in their lives first, which set them up for being one, later in life. One usually doesn't become a shaman until around age 40; but sometimes a few years earlier, although their entire life, from the time they are born, is actually on a shamanic path (and they usually don't realize/know this until much later). Shamans typically go through one or more life-and-death experiences, or experience an NDE, a near death experience--so they know what the other dimensions look like and what the death experience is all about.
They can have been very sick as babies or children, or taken on a chronic disease and then cured themselves of it, later on in life. They go through a period of 'insanity' because to work in the other dimensions, one must know what they look like, and what they are composed of, and what inhabits those places. This can be in the form of a 'nervous/emotional breakdown', a psychotic break from reality, schizophrenia, or Multiple-Personality-Dysfunction, as examples. The person will go through one of these forms of 'insanity' as a journeyman apprentice shaman--and come out the other side, whole and healed, in order to move forward in their shamanic development. A shaman cannot have a fear of death or of dying--they go through this process repeatedly until it's 'no big deal' any more. They must work through all their major fears, whatever they may be, before they can be successful at what they do. Many people are in training as shamans and don't know it--but to see these events unfold in their lives, is an indicator to me that they are on that 'path.'
HOW DO WE LOSE 'PIECES' OF OURSELVES?
From a shamanic viewpoint, when we encounter something that scares, shocks or traumatizes us, experiencing grief or loss of a beloved person or animal, place or thing, a part of ourselves may, but not always, split off as a result. In essence, it is TRAUMA that creates this splitting off process. PTSD certainly ranks high as a major reason for soul loss of one or more of our pieces. This splitting off means it's energy, in some form. I don't try to define it--to me, it's just an expression of energy. Whether it comes from one's soul, their spirit, their aura, a layer in their aura, I really don't know, and I'll let you try and decide that for yourselves.
This piece becomes 'stuck' in that dimension at that time frame or reference point/age when the trauma occurred to us. If we lose enough pieces of ourselves, it sets us up for dis-ease on a physical, mental, emotional or spiritual level--or a combination of the above. It can, in homeopathic vernacular, put us out of harmony or balance within our vital force.
By recovering this piece or pieces and bringing them back to you, the shaman teaches you how to re-integrate them back into yourself. A shaman performs many duties. To keep our craft humble, I like to refer to what we do as being Cosmic Bird Dogs--we hunt and sniff around in other dimensions, find and locate the missing pieces, and like a good retriever, we gather them up and bring them back to you! Sort of like playing 'fetch' or--'hide-and-seek'.... Another duty we perform is the task of helping you to integrate these parts of you back into yourself/vital force/aura. We stay in close touch with our clients shortly after a journey.
Shamans vary in what shape or form they bring back a piece to you. Sometimes the piece is in the form of a symbol, for other's, it may be a color, and for some, like myself, I literally 'see' the trauma you endured on a movie screen, the entire event given to me. I see what you're wearing, what was said, felt, etc. I bring all this information, including the missing piece(s) back to you.
ARE THERE OTHER WAYS TO RECOVERY MY LOST PIECES?
Absolutely! You can also recover pieces of yourself. You can get these pieces back during intense therapy, through many other models of therapy, prayer work, via a certain event occurring or reoccurring, your own soul growth, with age/time, or with many other 'tools' that we can heal ourselves with. I have seen pieces return with homeopathic constitutional treatment. Taking a shamanic intervention route, to me, is faster and quicker--it shaves off years of therapy, and saves a lot of money in the process! If you aren't comfortable with shamanic intervention, you should not employ it as a tool to help you heal. On the other hand, if you're comfortable with the process and concept, and have a faith/trust in it, this may be a tool to explore as a possibility.
HOT AND COLD JOURNEYS
Shamans can journey 'hot' or 'cold'. I like journeying cold. 'Hot' for us, means you have told us: "I want this piece (you identify the time, trauma and age that it occurred to you), of myself brought back" Hot means you're asking us to go after a specific incident where you were traumatized, by a person, place or thing, and to go in and recover it for you. 'Cold' means we don't want to know anything about you or your potentially lost pieces or trauma. Cold journeying has a greater, profound affect on the client because (a) they know we don't know anything about them, their loss or situation beforehand, and (b) when we bring back that piece or pieces and identify them, your age, and other details, you know it's true and that we did our job. When a cold journey brings back pieces only you could know about, the healing is immense and profound on every level. Let me give you an example:
TWO SHAMANIC CASE EXAMPLES
A very famous painter, many years ago, contacted me for help. He said that in the last five years, he hasn't been able to paint like he did before. He'd read my book and told me he had many symptoms of missing pieces (which I'll go into later in this article). I stopped him and said that I didn't need to hear any further information about him or his problem that what he'd just shared with me. He asked, rather dumbfounded, if I wasn't sure I needed more information. I said no, because if I was allowed to 'cold' journey for him (we have to get approval from the person we journey for as well as an approval from our spirit guide, to do it) I'd know all I needed to know. We made an appointment that he'd call me on a given day and hour. In the meantime, I'd journey on his behalf. (By the way, we do most of our journeys 'long distance'--that means you don't have to see us in person--you might live half way around the world, but when we're in our journey state, time and distance don't exist. Not all shamans have this unique capability. This enables us in being able to help people around the world without them spending a lot of money traveling to see us in person or vice-versa.)
When I went into the journey for this painter, after receiving permission, I was shown a 2-paned window half open to let the breeze in. It had white, delicate curtains framing it. I saw a man stick his head through the window in order to call someone outside the house. I saw the window come smashing down on the back of his neck, injuring him. I then saw this wildly spinning yellow triangle outside the window seconds after the physical trauma occurred. I was told by my guide to recover the triangle and bring it back to him. I was also instructed to do 'extraction' work on his neck where the injury occurred. Extraction means to take out or replace something in the person's vital force/aura.
When he called, I told him what I saw and described his trauma. He was thunderstruck. Yes, he had injured his neck exactly as I'd seen it. And for five years since then, he could no longer paint his beautiful, other-worldly scenes. Not only that, but he'd been to pain clinics around the world and used traditional and alternative methods to get rid of the chronic pain that had ensued since that accident, and none had worked to relieve his daily misery. He nearly cried when I told him about recovering the golden yellow triangle. He told me that this triangle was what he envisioned in his mind, with his eyes closed, before he'd begin painting a new picture.
As he lapsed into this light form of meditation, the golden triangle would grow larger, and he'd see himself going through this 'door' and then, onto the other side of it, he would see these incredible, wildly beautiful landscapes from other dimensions--which is what he painted. He would, in a shamanic way, transport himself, via the golden triangle, into the other dimensions, remember what he saw, bring this 'picture' back through the triangle, back into his physical body, and then he would get up and paint it.
The happy ending to this story is that since recovering this lost 'piece', he has been painting as before the accident had occurred. And the pain in his neck is gone.
My brother, Gary Gent, is a Vietnam War Vet. He was in the Army and station in Saigon. Luckily for him, my sister Nancy, was also living in Saigon at the time, so Gary was more fortunate than most to have 'family' there--which helped him immensely. However, when he got home, two weeks after coming Stateside, he was in a motorcycle accident that nearly killed him (the shamanic path--near death experience). He was driving, his girlfriend on the back (neither was wearing a helmet)--and a pickup truck, at 35 mph, turned the corner and struck them. Gary ended up in a coma, the rear of his skull badly injured. The girl escaped with cuts and bruises. Gary lay in a coma for nearly two weeks and the doctors thought for sure the tissue surrounding the brain stem injury would swell up and shut off the blood supply to his brain, thereby rendering him 'brain dead.'
I remember those awful days. My mother and father drove down to Modesto, California, where the accident had happened. I knew some homeopathy then, but my mother couldn't find the remedy (Arnica Montana) that I wanted her to give to Gary. So, she laid hands on him instead, as she had all of us kids when we were sick. I'm sure it made the difference. A week later, Gary came out of the coma--and the doctors considered it a miracle he'd survived, much less wasn't mentally retarded. The only loss he suffered was his loss of smell.
Many years later, I journeyed for Gary and retrieved the piece of him at the spot where the accident took place. I saw the motorcycle, the color of it, the color of the pickup and everything that happened. I brought this piece back to him. When I described the scene, he told me I was accurate on all details of it. He's now got about fifty percent of his ability to smell returned to him because of that retrieval.
Tyo Llorente, the Basque shaman, ran a journey for me. She did cold journeying, like I did. She came back with a piece of me, from my rape. She described my attacker, in detail, and did confirm I'd lost the piece due to the violation. The most profound thing that occurred after that was I no longer jumped if someone came up from behind me. It was the most amazing thing!
HOMEOPATHIC TREATMENT AND SR/E APPLICATIONS
I'd lived part of my life in this PTSD mode and homeopathy and therapy had not cured it. But the journey had. What I have discovered over the years is: homeopathy was able to help those pieces of me that were already with me or my vital force/aura. It could not 'cure' those missing parts I had yet to integrate and were somewhere 'out there'. Therapy performed similarly. It was the shamanic intervention that brought those pieces back, so that they could be dealt with--homeopathically, therapy-wise, and Flower Essence-wise, that have completed the bulk of my healing.
When I work with a new patient, and if they are open to shamanic intervention, I will mention to them. If they want it, then I like SR/E to be performed first, before I take their constitutional case--inevitably, the symptom picture changes--sometimes dramatically. I like to wait three months after the SR/E because it usually takes that long to integrate any returning pieces. By that time, the vital force/aura have settled down, the symptoms have changed and stabilized. At that point, I take their case.
Another instance where a homeopath knows darn well they have the right remedy, but the person's vital force is not responding--this is a time to think about getting journey done for them because there is a missing piece--and once that piece is returned and integrated, at that point, the well chosen remedy is given, and this time, it WILL work!
Or, if the homeopath has tried several remedies and the vital force is not budging or responding, oftentimes, a journey will unstick the whole affair, get the vital force working and integrating so that the picture shifts or changes. At that point, the homeopath can retake the case, prescribe and the remedy will work.
SIGNALS OF SOUL LOSS
Over the years, I saw certain tell-tale 'signs' that signaled, at least for me as a shaman, that an individual might have experienced soul loss. I'd like to share them with you, and at the same time say, that this is not a complete list--it is only my observations, so there could well be more. I'd also like to share the words we use daily in our speech, that indicates soul loss--but you wouldn't realize it--and they are 'red flags' for you to evaluate if you truly have suffered soul loss or not.
1. Schizophrenia:
This is a condition that
manifests when many pieces are taken--usually it is due to severe,
repeated childhood traumas that has been endured and the spirit is
shattered into many, many fragments or pieces. Because the pieces are
missing and not within the vital force/aura, the 'leaks' in the aura are
so many that the person can no longer filter out the other
inter-dimensions that surround them--so it is like being a radio and
you're receiving 50 other radio stations music, noise,
talk--simultaneously--and there is no way to shut them off or down.
2. Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD):
(This is known as the 'three faces of Eve' for those who may not be
familiar with this phenomena). Individuals with this disorder have
suffered through great emotional/mental trauma, usually during in utero/baby/childhood,
and have developed compartmentalized personalities to deal with the
ongoing traumas--whether the trauma exists now in their life or not, does
not matter. As each piece is flipped off due to trauma, a new personality
takes its place to fill the 'hole' or vacuum left by the piece being lost
due to trauma. As each piece is recovered, the personalities begin to
disappear.
3. Depression:
Any type of depression that
is diagnosed as ongoing or chronic apply here. When we lose enough pieces,
or one main piece, we become depressed--grieving, and potentially angry
over the loss of that piece(s). This also includes manic-depression.
4. Inability to Ground One's Self:
This is
someone who is constantly daydreaming, shows a lack of interest in daily
life, and wants to escape by watching TV, drinking alcohol, consuming
drugs, 'checking out', or is considered a 'space cadet' mentality. This
person usually runs around frantically, is completely disorganized, and
has little self-discipline. These ungrounded people have literally, in the
astral sense, pulled up and out of their physical body. This is usually
from the knees upward. It is simply too painful for them to be one-hundred
percent grounded and connected to this third dimensional reality. They
also 'lift off' because there are pieces missing and they feel terribly
vulnerable. Therefore, they try to escape that feeling of vulnerability
and loss by leaving their body.
5. Detachment:
A feeling as if you are
standing outside yourself and seeing the world pass by without being
connected to it in any way, has occurred. This may be accompanied by
sociopathic behavior: the person exhibits no morals, values or principles.
In fact, there is no sense of anyone else existing except themselves and
what they want out of life. Emotions will be numb, and sometimes there is
physical numbness somewhere in their body. There may also be a sense of
helplessness, giving up or feeling immune to human or animal suffering, in
general.
6. Blocks of Memory Loss:
Any time you
cannot remember a certain age or stage of your life, soul loss has
occurred. That piece(s) that retains that memory is no longer there for
you to recall what happened. Usually, large blocks of memory loss (say,
from ages 6 to 12) show that trauma has occurred, soul loss followed, and
memory loss is the result. Combat vets, 'trauma junkies' (EMT, paramedic,
police and firefighters, especially the ones involved in the Pentagon and
World Trade Centers disasters), experiencing a severe auto accident, hard
labor during pregnancy, weather event such as a tornado or hurricane,
earthquake, are but a few events that are responsible for this.
7. Chronic Illness:
This can occur from the
time you were born, or a specific part of your life. Soul loss can occur
to the baby in utero, during labor/birth and shortly after birth
(caesareans are particularly traumatic for the baby). If this happens, and
there is soul loss, the baby has a long, chronic history of always
catching every cold, flu and childhood diseases--over and over again. For
example, I was chronically sick from the time I was born, until, at two
years old, in 1948--and I almost died. I had my tonsils removed at that
early age. I then continued to contract every cold and flu and ear
infection around, until five years old, and then contracted scarlet fever
which led to rheumatic fever and heart damage at six years old. At age
eleven I had mononucleosis, and at age twelve, hepatitis. This is the
'path' of the shaman--learning about life and death through acute or
chronic diseases--and barely surviving them. These pieces can be returned
and health can be achieved.
8. Addiction:
Any type of addiction,
including drugs, alcohol, codependence, food (anorexia as well as
bulimia), sex, love, gambling, etc. Or, repetition of the same mistake
over and over again--another form of addictive behavior. For example,
choosing to continue to marrying abusive men, or creating difficult work
situations over and over again.
9. Unable to Release:
A divorce, a death of
a loved one (or pet). Your life revolves around the past and it becomes an
obsession that you cannot seem to release, stop thinking about, or stop
feeling about.
10. Mentally asking:
Why am I here? A sense
of emptiness, of not connecting or being connected as you know
instinctively that you should be. A sense of knowing you are not whole,
but being unable to express it that way. A sense of not belonging. Wanting
to go 'home' and knowing 'home' is not Earth.
11. Continual Cycles of Colds or Flu:
No
matter how many antibiotics are taken, and at any age, if this cycle
begins, there is soul loss involved. Or, contracting immune system
diseases, such as arthritis, cancer or AIDS. If you are easily stressed,
there could be soul loss. When stress reaches the immune system, it
buckles quickly, due to soul loss. When the piece is not there to support
and underwrite the immune system, cycles of illness ensue.
12. A Vague Feeling of Impending Doom:
This
feeling often appears after the loss of a piece. The individual begins to
feel terribly vulnerable and may unconsciously sense that something is
'wrong' or missing--but not know what it is.
13. Obesity and Unexplained/Explained Weight Gain:
This is a pattern I've seen repeatedly with those who were
molested/raped as baby/child, and they may or may not have memory of it.
Or a woman or man is raped when they are older and do remember it. The
other scenario is a highly dysfunctional childhood where abuse was
experienced. The result can be the same: The person will unconsciously
either eat more food or the body, without the use of more food, will build
a protective 'barrier' or padding to help protect the vulnerability that
is so sharply felt by this individual. Fat becomes a physical symbol of
armor or protection against the unconscious knowing that a piece of them
is missing (usually a number of important pieces) and they must do
'something' to protect that hole or loss within them.
Or, the fat/protection is put on to make the rape/incest survivor look unattractive, in order to avoid being attacked again. Any time violation occurs, whether in the form of incest/rape/mugging/combat, our body will, in some instances and vital forces (the Carbon and Calcarea families, especially), use fat as an armor of protection against this loss of pieces.
14. Abuse or Violence:
It doesn't matter
whether you were a baby/child/adult, if you experience abuse or violence,
you can and will usually lose a piece or pieces. In the worse abuse or
violence, more pieces that are lost. And even if the abuser is now dead,
he or she can still retain those missing parts of you. Abusers 'steal'
pieces of others because they've had so much of themselves stolen from
another individual, and the only way for them to survive (they think,
usually on an unconscious level) is to take from others--and so the abuse
cycle moves from one generation in a family to another. PTSD falls under
this heading. It can be an actual war that the person lives through, or a
'war' in the family, while growing up.
15. Loss of Self-Esteem:
The feeling of
shame, humiliation or the lack of confidence, all signals of major soul
loss. Women often suffer from this because they are in a gender-suppressed
society.
EXPRESSIONS USED BY THOSE WHO HAVE SUFFERED SOUL LOSS:
Over the years, I've gathered a lot of sayings from those who have had soul loss. See if you find yourself among these expressions.
1. I just don't feel whole.
2. I know s/he has a piece of me.
3. I feel as if there's a gaping hole here, in me (and you point to the area/region).
4. I just feel lost; as if I have no direction, no goals.
5. I can't sleep well at night.
6. S/he stole a part of me.
7. S/he still has a strangle hold on me.
8. I feel as if s/he's still got a part of me even though s/he's dead or out of my life.
9. I'm tired all the time; I just don't have any pep or energy.
10. I feel as if I'm an extremist: I can't do anything middle-of-the-road. I have to go to extremes.
11. S/he hates me.
12. I have dreams about this person; it's as if they are haunting me.
13. I feel like I'm a slave to that person.
14. I feel out of kilter, out of balance, but don't know why!
15. I feel like a cripple, but I shouldn't!
16. My senses feel dead; I don't feel any joy or sadness.
17. I can't cry--I haven't for years.
18. I feel as if s/he's controlling me, and I don't have the strength to say 'no' to them.
19. I feel as if I'm being torn apart by all of them.
20. I feel like a puppet just waiting for my family to jerk my strings.
HOW DO I CONTACT A SHAMAN?
In the back of my book, SOUL RECOVERY AND EXTRACTION, there is a directory of individuals whom I've trained in the method over the years. Needless to say, true shamans don't grow on trees--and all of my facilitators have endured the demanding path of a shaman up until they met me and I recognized in them their abilities and invited them to train with me. In the old traditions of my people, I do not charge for the training; for what is taught is sacred and can never be revealed or taught to another without permission. Much like Prometheus who stole the fire from the gods and gave it to humans, the actual training techniques are never shared except with those chosen to do this kind of demanding, responsible work. Most importantly, these people all come from the heart. They are interested in your empowerment, not their own.
SOURCES:
Website:
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(click on Soul Recovery and Extraction)
SR/E facilitator's page:
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Free chapter on Soul Recovery and
extraction by Ai Gvhdi Waya (Eileen Nauman) at:
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