 LATIN: Hesperis matronalis
GOOD FOR: The third eye essence. Getting in touch with your inner vision; ability to see the greater picture and dance in life around you.
DID YOU KNOW:
To say the least, you are a mental giant. You think a lot--maybe too much. Your mind is sharp, curious, quick to jump and make up your mind about something. You do very well in academic surroundings. And you're good at memorizing things. Able to learn in classroom situations, you are a "book learner" type. Verbal by nature, you can communicate well in speaking as well as writing. Your world consists of using logic and rationalization. A prove-it-to-me kind of person.
THE HEALTHY YOU:
You're a gut-hunch kind of person whether you realize it or not. A lot of your decisions are based upon primal instinct which may or may not even tweak you consciously. However, you're a wonderful amalgam of rational mind (left brain) and right brain (instincts and intuition) IF you want to be. If you are truly in balance, you become very "whole-brained", utilizing both hemispheres of your brain to a very high degree. Not only can you know the answer to an Algebra problem before doing the math on it, you can also do the math to prove how you know the answer! That's a pretty neat trick!
THE UNHEALTHY YOU:
Insomnia can dog your heels because you are the one that gets the "gerbil running on the wheel" at night, and you can't shut off your thoughts. They just keep rolling along even though you'd like some sleep! You can get dogged, stuck and very stiff-necked about your belief system. Worse, you will be arrogant about it and you're right and the rest of the world is wrong. It's "my way or no way...." kind of blinders-on attitude. The old saying: You are cut off from the neck down, implies that you allow your logic and rational to rule you and you suppress your emotions--not a good thing in the long run!
 PROVING:
DAME'S ROCKET STAGE 2 PROVING COMPILED BY MICHAEL FOLTZ
April 27, 1999
Dame's Rocket
SG (female)
I had a water accident too. Water jug slipped and the water splashed all over the place. Emotional essence. I kept chasing the flowers all over the place. It took a lot of patience to get the flowers. The notice of the flower was a replica of the stem, a focused well protected plant.
Took the essence. My hearing got more intense. Audible. I could smell the fragrance of lavender. I got a color of read then a calm yellow column. The abdominal relaxed. And I could feel water like bubble movement. Like a release of discomfort or tightness in my abdominal after taking the essence. ( the tightness I had before the essence was taking and aching tightness).
My plan of awareness just expanded out horizontal from my eyes straight out yellow gold like a record platter in all directions with me in the middle. I was fighting with telling myself to get out of my head ( mind gapping is part of my normal sensation)
Lavender color took over as I moved over the plate and out as I was way out there at the galactic center. I thought wow I'm really out there. This was more like a projected awareness. This is a new experience to me. Non reality dream. I was in the observe state. When I came back to a sea shore. Time was up and THUMP I was back.
This morning my room mate got a different room and this brought up issues of very emotional abandonment issues, childhood stuff, like I was not worthy. I cried a lot.
I Started by spilling my water all over I thought it was an accident. (Eileen said this was significant) SG thought it was her own fault (self denial), water is emotion, cup lost the water so the start was emotions not contained. Went through the whole process with the exception of one thing. Added a prayer. Felt the presence of two Indians beating a drum and they kept hitting my 3rd eye in a rhythm three different times, getting more intense as I went. Saw a light emanating from the center like a star. Very blissful state oneness / Zen like/ Kundalini. Very sweet taste like a sweet grass. After a while I could hear the other Indian play a very high shrill sound that stopped all thought on my part maybe tinnitus flute like sound. The pounding was a pulsating in the middle of the forehead and out the back of the head. The pain was a drawing sharp pain (contraction type of pain). Intense headache this morning pounding starting at the middle front, spreading and going deeper, moving to sides and top (vertex) out the < occiput < pressure < touch.
My upper body seemed to be really being worked like a pressure or massage on the right scapula. Pressure and digging pain of the right scapula. The lower hip-pelvic locked up with an intense pressure. Sensation of tightness and I couldn't get up.
Left side left hip pressure started below the rib cage extended to the left hip in a massage constriction manner.
Secondary chakra was the Solar Plexus chakra. Churning in the solar plexus chakra. Concomitant Locked down hip with solar plexus chakra (churning).
A thought of " The world has denied my presence. " Childhood issues is what this meant to me as the issue of not being loved for who I really am. The absence of unconditional love.
Also had nausea this morning when I got up. When I started working on this early this morning (writing up my report) I felt very nausea and had to get up and leave the area. Vomiting clears very deep old issues. This happened (vomiting) this morning. Dream of calling me Tawana.
GSS (female)
4/27/99
La Casa de Madre Tierra, AZ
3:15 pm
Moon in Libra 10 degrees
Sun conjunct Saturn
Mars and pluto Retrograde
Partial shade, blue sky, sunny, windy, 80 F degrees
Flower Description
1. Petals - light purple, 4 lobes, teardrop shape, darker purple veining through petals. Petal on short green stalks to make flower, vase shape under flower from middle to top, skinny short flower stem
2. Inner color to petals - green
3. Stamens - 4 tall paired spiked tips, 2 opposite short, 1 stout with stigma in center
3b. see above
3c. Sepal - 4 green center purple edging, elongated oval
4. fragrance ?
5. Stem - rigid round texture, fuzzed, tall
6. Leaf - alternate, toothed, up, fuzzy, dark top lighter smooth under, yellow veins - Lightening streaks
7. root - ?
Flower attunement message: Stepped in mushy spot . Flowers beautiful - peaceful. Warm hands, delicate, 4- foundation. Lucky thoughts of 4 leaf clover
Primary chakra BC
Secondary chakra - all
Patterns of imbalance - attunement to nature
Positive healing patterns - move energy, emotional
Tasted - water - sensation of nice
Physical sensations - Lips prickly, teeth hurt top left went to ache from brow over top the head and down back to root and then throbbed there. arms shaky. dull stabbing pain at solar plexus rear, low back left and top of shoulders. Deep sigh. Band around forehead pressure, Sensuous. Saw Indigo
Odor or Color to water - none
Dreams the night after drinking: Sensuous, Botswana, Bald Eagle flying, glimpses from his eyes
Other: - Felt like flying. Hearing heightened especially for birds.
Wanted to savor in mouth - felt sensuous, silky, thick like syrup texture.
Throbbed in back of throat. Wanted to lay down. Saw tree trunk with a
window in it. Sun felt intense/leg twitches - relaxed when laid down.
Saw Native American male with full bald eagle headdress. I asked if he had anything to tell me and then saw a hand clasp between two people. Heard the ocean roar loudly then felt strong north wind. Felt springy while walking & happy. Mind jabbering. weak arms. irritated by intrusion and/or non-nature noises.
Next Morning: - Sore to touch at back/base of skull, weak arms physically, slight temple pressure, woke up at 4 am & wanted to call my children...did since the time difference made it 7 am at home.
It felt very curious. Very beautiful foundation and luck (4 leaf clover like). Stepped in mostly water mud. Lips felt prickly and upper teeth front felt pain left to molar boring pain. Then felt ache on brow up and down to the root chakra. A constant ache, that traveled then turned into a warm throbbing. Then a sensual feeling. Warm feeling in the root chakra, then left. Arms (both) had an inner trembling. Band on head (pressure feeling). Dull stabbing pains in the solar plexus started on the left side back to the lower lumbar. Pain sharp stabbing in both shoulders (top). Felt an indigo type of feeling, like I wanted to fly in an unknown reality state. One really big sigh. Hearing became more acute. Auditory increase.
Second dose. I did not want to swallow it was thick smooth feeling. Mostly an emotional, sensual all feeling. Deep breath again. Still didn't want to swallow the second dose. Respiration anxiety. I felt like I wanted to lay down and sleep. Hearing nature sounds really intense. Got a vision of a tree trunk with a window. Other noises really bothered me Gail walked by and the leaves noise really annoyed me. I wanted silence and to be alone, I was really relaxed but didn't want to be bothered. Light twitches in my right leg around the inner thigh. Both legs but mostly the right.
Vision of an Indian with a bald eagle head dress. Saw Clasped hands was viewed and it seemed like it was him and I. Roaring of ocean into me like >from the beach, took all my attention, later realized it was the wind. Felt really springy and happy walking down the road.
Really sensual dreams with a man I know, like (tactile) feely all over. BOTSWANA was a word that came to me. Dream of a bald eagle flying and I could see through it's eyes. Still feel weak arms. Possibly help Parkinson's disease. Mind gapping was occurring- this is not normal. It interfered with my normal thinking.
This morning still have a sensitive Occiput and slight headache.
I was really drawn to this flower. Broke into tears as soon as I asked for permission to work with this flower. It was a happy type of crying - joyful. A chicken started to come around me as I started to work. The message that came to me was come on inŠ A lot going on before working with the PLant a lot of joy, I got the message of being a very delicate flower-not fragile, but delicate. When looking up at the main cluster I saw fireworks, which told me to be focused. Rather than protection I received a protection to move forward, not to back off type of protection.
Preparing to drink the essence I got a message that I must take off my hat, which I interrupted a crown chakra.
Choked on the first taste and got a green taste, headache band all around my head a dull pressure. Ears had a fullness pressure like changing altitude in an airplane. Headache started at the left temple going both directions it came and went. Felt very still and mind quite US. Nausea in stomach ( concerned to do this right acceptance issue). My whole body got very comfortable a sighing feeling.
Second taste gave me pressure from the inside out (head and cheeks). Then I got very angry with a memory of a recent adult situation ( not told to us). From above I was looking down at the ground ( a non active view somewhat shamanic) oneness with all. Ears fullness pressure like changing altitudes when flying in an airplane.
Afterwards the essence effect was still there. I felt like just hanging out in this area or feeling.
WHAT COULD THIS ESSENCE BE USED FOR:
Childhood issues, abandonment issues, not in a reality stage, headaches, "nervous" breakdown .
KL (female)
Name: Dame's Rocket
Date: 4-27-99
Location: At Eileen Nauman's house - in her back yard by the fence.
Time of day picked: 3:15 PM
How long in water?: 45 minutes
Full Sun
Weather Conditions/Temperature: mid 80s - mild/strong breeze around, but quiet around the plants (hearing lots of rustling in the trees).
Flower Description
1. petal color(s), Shape, How many: 4 petals, very deep lavender, trumpet shaped with the four petals opening out widely at the bell of the flower The horn of the flower is fairly long, with the petals joined.
2. Inner color to petals: yellow green, and completely hidden below corolla part, thin, long and branches out at bell of flower.
3. Stamens (how many, color, shape, size): light green, tall spiky, hidden except for tips of filaments. Filaments thick from top to bottom, but slightly spiked at tip. Pistil: thick green, yellow tip (very hidden) strong stigma ball like Sepal: lavender, 4 very tight against horn of flower, long almost joined like protecting the corolla of the flower
4. Fragrance: violet in smell - reminded me of the wild violets in my yard.
5. Stem description: 1 main stem - stiff straight strong up to the top blossom pack where i would curve a little but no bends. A few side branches from main stem (at certain levels). 1st level alternates, 2nd level with other branches alternates all around. fuzzy round stem.
6. Leaf description: has strong main vein with branching. yellow vein top. bottom same shade of green on top and bottom. fuzzy and soft. Curls around itself (like it needs water). looks like leaves 'perch' on the stem.
7. Root: don't know.
Flower Attunement Message: "Get out of your head (at least the left side)" Evasive (I had flowers permission - but as I tried to collect the blossoms, they kept dancing around in the breeze almost as a test to make sure I REALLY wanted to do this).
Primary Charkra: Brow Çhakra: emotional/intellectual expansion until I was looking back upon the milky way. I 'rode' out a horizontal expanding plain (Awareness was expanding - not my head or body parts), and when I mentally stopped and looked back - I was viewing the milky way from out in deep space (the whole screen was lavender in color).
Secondary Chakra: Brow chakra and Crown Chakra. I felt strong energy funneling out top and bottom - started with very red color and became the golden horizontal plane that I 'rode' out from above.
Pattern of Imbalance: For parent who is over protective of child/smothering child "hiding child from the world". Protective of what is 'inside' (possibly emotions?). Evasive in dealing with emotions, even when one knows you need to deal with them.
Symbols: expanding violet/lavender star burst.
Positive Healing Patterns: release of tension from abdomen (NC). helps the overprotective parent. Expand focus and recognition from self to what is around you (at very LARGE/HIGH level).
Essence Water Description
1. Tasted like: violet - strong smell from flowers on water.
2. And taste in mouth or throat: little sensation
3. Affected me physically? Where? Sensations? sensation of release (muscles relaxing) - and very still and centered within myself.
4. Color to water? none
Odor? strong violet smell
5. Dreams the night after drinking the flower essence: none.
6. Other: I continued to feel 'out there' for some time after taking this essence (Eileen mentioned I looked like I was 'out there' as well). I didn't really get back to myself until after we ate dinner. Another aspect that may or may not be related. My roommate left for personal space that evening, and I started a strong 'over reaction' - that seemed to come from old/strong feelings of rejection and 'unworthiness'. Not 100% sure which essence we did this day that seemed to start this process, but this essence could have help start it (expand focus, and dealing with hidden/evasive emotions).
The overall effect was the riding out of the lavender star burst until I was looking back on the Milky Way - then shrinking back down until I was back on earth - though still in another place, flying along a seashore with lavender cliffs.
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